Christmas is coming and i know that’s where most of the revenue for the year are being generated. If only i have a team of workers who will automate my work, i would have more time for other important things which I’m struggling at right now.

I feel like weeping and whining all day long but it will not solve my problem. Telling and complaining to others will help a bit but in reality, they can’t do anything to solve my problem.The only solution lies in me.

You got 2 choice in life. You do or you don’t do, yet every decision of every path will leads to another 2 choice which is: do well or do average. Similarly, if you take the “don’t do” path.. you either forget about it or having this unsatisfied thought which stuck in your head with the following statement – “what if i do, i wonder what it will lead me…(somewhere along that line)”

So what do you want really?
Do you want to earn lots of money and sacrifice your health and studies(dreams)? Does the sacrifice worth it?
- NO! money is essential but my dream of making a comeback is bigger than earning money right now!

You want to make a eye popping comeback within 1 year time then you got two choice:
do it hard or do it smart…

So how do i make $50k , 4As for next A level and 3.8 GPA for overall semester? Lets come out with some idea, shall we?

• In order to make SG$50k, i need to make US$40K profit (assuming that currency rate remains at 1.25x of that Singapore currency)..In order to make $40k per month.. i need to make at least $1333.40 per day. WOW, that’s a lot of money and that’s what you make per month currently. – Okay… but what if you X30 of what you have now? is it possible? No.. i feel like collapsing at the rate I’m going now… Okay… what if you concentrate 80% on the ones that are most profitable and keep improving on it while using the remaining 20% to find new methods, ways or campaigns… will that makes a different? – Maybe.. lesser time and effort to get greater result… not mentioning able to create new successful method or campaign. – okay.. that’s one you should strive on from now on.. 80/20 rule..
• What if you sell a $197 product and you just need to sell 7 each day? sounds possible.. if i have many affiliates and a good product which people needs or wants.. PPC and SEO is my traits so i think this wouldn’t be that hard. – Okay that 2 solution for your problem.. another suggestion to your problem shall we?
• What if you create services to solve customer wants or needs? Then outsource those service to third world countries? Umm.. i’m scared dealing with people… – okay, what if you try and see if you can handle it.. if you cant then let others do it for you!.. okay.. perhaps i’ll try…
• What if you start doing affiliate marketing for 5 different niches and see how profitable its like and then create a better version for the 5 different niches.. this takes alot of effort.. – i know, what if every day you give 30mins to the website and slowly promoting it.. can you do it? maybe..
• The last thing you could do is through paid advertising… All you need is someone to monitor whether a particular is profitable or not.

- There you have it.. 5 suggestion to earn $50k profit per month…. the things to take note is that: do something everyday consistently…

Lets move on to your second problem….
First thing which i need to ask you: why do you want to retake A level for the 3rd time.
- Because i want to be in the same level as Pamela and i want to prove how smart i am to the world.
Does Pamela still in contact with you?
No..
- Then why are you so obsessed to have a status quo?
i don’t have a definite answer to this question.
- Lets say you miraculously scored 4As, what will this benefit you?
Bragging rights, no regrets and i know where i stand..
- How dedicated are you to achieve your goal currently?
3/10
- Do you think its worth it?
partially
- Do you think you can achieve this?
no.. because i have no time!
- So what are you going to do?
Have a personal tutor who will guide me..
- What is weakest subject?
General Paper..
- So how are you going to pass your GP..?
Attend School of Thoughts…
- Do you have time?
No.. sacrifice have to be made… like skipping poly class, lectures…
- How about your business then?
Let Hafiz take over my business for a monthly fee…
- Will he agree?
50% chance but have to try.. lets say he refuses and I’ll find someone who is trustworthy to do it.
- How do you make sure everything is in order..
Spend an hour each day to make sure things going smoothly…at least 10% monthly growth.

Now,  on to the 3rd problem which is how are you going to get GPA of 3.8 despite hectic schedule?

• When I’m not doing anything related to my goals, then i should study for my poly.
• Listen attentively to lectures and tutorials
• Do homework
• Spend 2 days before exam to study thoroughly
• When examination comes.. put everything aside and spend a week to study for it

Okay… You can do it.. I believed in you!

Christmas is coming! Less than 3 months to prepare my sites to get a piece of the holiday season. Do you know that for the month of December, people spend 3x more than any other month? Affiliate marketer are geared up and everyone in this industry are pulling out every single arsenal they have to outrank one another. This sound fun to me , you can expect volatile SEO ranking for every hot niches! You can be in the top 3 for a particular day and in the next few days or hours, expect to see some changes to your ranking.

Here is what I’m going to do to take advantage of this upcoming holiday season. I’m going to register 10 newly registered domains targeting at amazon products including Kindle Fire (if you’re promoting this, let me caution you that i’m going ALL OUT) and also product launches on the sideline.

Seo is a game. If you’re diligent and a hard worker then you’re in for the treat. I mean tons of affiliate sale.

I feel like wanting to slap myself sometime for wasting 3-4hours of time on average. I have lots of thing to do and yet i’m either playing game on facebook or on ps3. Worst still, not committing myself to my schedule especially when comes to exercise. I really need someone to motivate me..

Also, just got my result for my 1st semester. To me i have done slightly above average since i know i can get full 4 pointer. I studied last minute, especially for Marketing and POA (I mean last min, studied for few hours the night before exam). My sister knows best Have to study harder for the upcoming semester… I have to.. for the future I’m aiming for: a comeback!

Here is what I’m targeting till the end this year:

• 4.0 pointer with an A for Advanced module (if i can get in) and for core elective as well.
•  Make sure 50% of my existing website rank top 3 SERP
• Attend Toastmaster Chapter

Talking about toastmaster chapter, i just attended one with my brother-in-law last Saturday. It was fun and i get to know some of nice people over there. Talking about networking, there’s lot of opportunity to get to know others and at the same time learning how to do presentation confidently (something i’m bad at!) Go view it and see how bad my presentation skill is. It is my 1st attempt so far and i’m sure i can get the hang of it eventually.

2. My weight is nearing 100kg.

3. Need to promote more campaign.

4. Need to find a new driving instructor. I need to pass!

5. I need to study for A level and Poly

6. Need to establish a new routine for every day – Need to make planning.

7. Need to find CCA

8. Need to cultivate the habit of reading

9. Ezchema – Keep on itching >.<

10. My head hurts sometime..

God lend me your strength.. i’m sinking at the moment..

My research paid off and i managed to get them online.. how is that possible right?

Well, that’s what i thought initially but i just took the risk of hoping that my shipment can pass through our custom. Although it takes almost a month to ship over(i use the normal shipping) to Singapore, you can purchase most of popular prescription drug from this online store:

www.pharmacyescrow.com.. there’s no affiliate link and I’m not trying to endorse this product. Also, do take note that you bear the risk and consequences resulting from consuming any drug you purchased.

All i can say to you:  do your research first and read other people’s review before buy.

I’m off to buy my 2nd shipment

I just cant get her out of my mind.

If only she’s still around.. maybe things will be a lot less stressful.

There’s only 1 solution to see her again…

I just have put on my uniform and wait for her at A&E.

Blah, whats the point..?

I’m not fit for her. If she sees me how much weight i have put on, she wouldn’t even want to talk to me for another minute.

Her angelic face keep appearing in my dream now and then, cant explain why.

I miss my mum too, its been a week already.

Things gone downhill for the past few week, i feel like intoxicate myself.

Its already 2am and i still cant sleep.

Pam, i miss you dearly.

Its been a while since i last blogged.

Mum going to Malaysia with Sis and i’ll be alone for the entire of next week.

My life kinda empty right now although its better now.

No excitement and everything bores me.

Not even money able to motivate me.

I don’t want to carry on like this forever but for my own sake and living up to my promise of an ex-colleague, i must achieve what i have aimed for.

I wouldn’t want to feel regret for not achieving the things that matters before i die.

That would be an ultimate suffering for me.

Anyone can surely do it if you just follow the steps that i have outlined for you.

Task may varies from market research, website promotion, writing articles/newsletter and other administrative work which i need you to complete within a certain period of time.

Note that you will be paid based on result, not hourly.

Incentives will be also be given if you manage to complete task within allocated time with satisfactory quality.

Pay is negotiable and it will be transferred to your bank account once i have checked your work.

If you are curious what I’m currently doing online, it’s affiliate marketing.

Please let me know by emailing me: nurimanariff (at) gmail.com.

I’m also looking for partnership with regards to my future offline business.

I’m thinking of offering offline services such as SEO, Website Creation, Mobile Web Creation, SEM, Web Hosting for local businesses.

Let me know if you’re interested.

I know you have been trying so hard and i acknowledged your effort to get back onto life. However, don’t be too harsh on yourself and don’t expect quantum leaps within a short period of time. I know how things are in your life right now, things are getting better but somehow you seems to be out of steam and that other part of you is sabotaging your thoughts and energy level at the moment.

Just to let you know that you’re not alone since I’m always there whenever you are. You can rely on me if you ever need someone to listen to your complains and worry. I won’t judge or tell you what you should do at any situation because i know you can make your own decision yourself because you seen and experienced lots of thing already , something which others may not have or gone through before. I know how you feel, think and whats going through your head all the time and just to let you know that i do carry your burden and responsibility also. You don’t have take it all by yourself, problems will get easier if there’s another person willing to share the load also.

I do know that you are missing someone dearly. It’s been almost a year since you last seen her. Her words and appearance keep on appearing from time to time. I can understand that I know you still have attached emotion of her till today and its hard for you to forget her completely. Just to let you know that the moment that you shared together will always be in you, no one can ever take that from you even though the person no longer accept the way you are. It’s so meaningful to miss someone in your life right now and knowing that it was a mistake not to appreciate her make the whole situation even more meaningful.

What is the purpose of life? This question always bother you right? Let me tell you what i think, its not how many friends, cars, money and houses that you owned, but it how you experience life from time to time. Feeling loved, to really live and knowing there is a purpose to your existence is all you need to know about life. Getting there is hard, i know but with persistence and willpower i’m definitely sure you can do it!

Like what others have told you before, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and “The impossible can always be broken up into possibilities”. Keep that in mind before admitting defeat. You have proved your worthiness many times before and i know you can do this! I trust and believe in you than anyone else so remember that. Don’t doubt or sabotage yourself with self-defeating thoughts, just reach out outside your comfort zone by little bit at a time, ok?

Hey man, its almost 3:30am.. Lets go sleep already, there’s sch in the morning. Rest well ok? You deserved it.

Regards, your only best friend
NA

Although my emotion is not killing me inside out, everything seems bleak at the moment.

I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do, just need someone who can give me some sort of encouragement.

Everything seems to be silence in my life, nothing seems to excite me anymore.

I miss some people but i know things aren’t the same like it used to be.

I’m beginning to wonder if my life really matter? if i were to disappear tomorrow, who would actually notice that i’m no longer exist…

I’m not feeling depressed but sometimes i really wonder if what I’m doing now really matter?

Why should i make a comeback? who can i celebrate my success with? no one..

Maybe you think that I’m just a lonely guy but the reality is, i prefer to be a alone than being disappointed.

I abandoned most if not all of my friends already and i have no one to reach to although I’m sure some of my ex-colleagues are willing to hear my problems.

The thing is, i don’t trust anyone and no longer have the interest to make others like me or whatsoever.

Why is my life going in circles? I’m sick of it.

I just passed my final theory test this morning for the 2nd time although i didn’t study at all.

I’m dying to get my license so that i drive my sis car at 150km/hr

I don’t mind ending up dead in a RTA

I’m thinking of seeing my doctor but i know she cant do anything much.it will be just another fruitless conversation unless i act upon my current situation.

Maybe i should talk to God and ask him what is my purpose of being in this world.. again and again

sigh. This world isn’t for me.

I also read a couple of memoirs and autobiographies of past and present successful which includes MM Lee Kuan Yew: The Hard Truths To Keep Singapore Going.

With all the readings, i have picked out several useful information on how to improve my current way of life. I hope you will learn some useful tips and insights from reading this post as well. But first, i want to share with you my story…

I realized that i missed out a lot in life. My life all this while have been mainly revolving around online/computer game ever since i was 10 years old. I was first introduced to PlayStation which i got addicted shortly after.I also had a Gameboy which almost being stolen when attending a religious class. In addition to that, i had my own computer when i was only 12 years old and soon you might guess, i spend most of my time playing games.

My addiction with games worsen all the way to my teenage life but this time round, i spend most of my time playing games online. I still remember playing Lan games from morning all the way to evening on Saturday and Sunday with few of my buddies. Once i got back home, i’ll continue with online gaming until wee hours of about 4-5am. Had few hours of sleep before i had to drag myself out of the bed to school. When comes to homework, i’ll just copy from my classmate since i HATE TO SIT DOWN AND STUDY. Despite all of this, I somehow able to pass my test although i hardly had the time to revise or study for tests. Still, i was in Express stream and even becoming a Student Councillor for few months, on top of my CCA which is NPCC during secondary school.

When comes to O’level, i thought that getting into JC is going to be a breeze so i didn’t study hard for it. I was still playing games as hard as i could even when examination is around the corner. I remembered sitting for O’level Maths test, knowing that it was relatively an easy paper but i couldn’t remember some of the formula thus i left about 10% blank! The same thing happened for my A level Maths test. I blew it not once but twice! Yet i got B3 for my O level Maths and grade C for my A level Maths.

I also remembered myself being disappointed with myself when i received my O’level result. I promised a friend that i’ll be going to Pioneer Junior College so that i can see ‘her’ (online gaming friend) there. She called several times but didn’t had the guts to tell her (also i was shy) that my O level points was beyond the cut off point thus i can’t go to any of the junior college in Singapore. Heck, my L1R5 only exceed the cut-off by 2 points. I was angry and at the same time feeling disappointed with myself since two of my sister managed to enter JC while i can’t!

This ‘temporary setback’ have made me to believe that:
1) I wasn’t as smart and capable as my sister
2) I’m not good enough
3) hope of achieving my goals is futile given the first two reason

I went to Millennia Institute instead since i can’t enter any of the Junior College in Singapore.

With all the self-defeating negative thoughts in my mind, it slowly poisoned me mentally that i didn’t had any CCA and no interest of coming to school. I skipped some lessons (especially mother tongue) and often late for school. Got suspended once for being a recalcitrant late comer and almost got kick edout of school since i was not performing in my studies. I spent most of time playing Day of Defeat (kudos to SGDOD for all the wonderful time from 2005-2008) and playing maplestory (i was top 100 in Singapore within 2 months of its release). To cut the story short, i became anti-social in school and at the same time experiencing the worst feeling anyone could have in school.

Here’s why:
1. I didn’t want to be in that school in the first place
2. I didn’t had any friend which i could rely on
3. I was experiencing all the 7 negative emotions during school hours. They are Anger, Revenge, Fear, Jealousy, Superstition, Hatred, Greed.

I was dissipating negative vibes around me and i developed this barrier between me and the people in the reality. I hardly talked to my family members since i was trapped in my own world and i can’t tell the difference what’s reality and what’s not.

No one try to stop the bad habits that i was subjected myself to and i pushed any (potential) help from others. It was like a mental suicide!!

You can read my very first blog: http://confusendespair.blogspot.com(didn’t edit any of it for 6 years!)

Let’s cut the story short.

The fact is: I was once a complete failure because i had a bad habit and attitude about the people and things around me.

Hence it is important for anyone to know where you’re standing right now.

Are you getting closer to your goal or are just being drifted by the current of life?

In summary:
1) Decide what you want in life and know where you stand
2) Get over with the Past, get it resolved or accept the way it is. Adopt new belief! – Past doesn’t equal Future -
3) Think consistently what you want on going basis, the key part is to develop positive feelings for it
4) Have faith in yourself backed with ‘emotionalized thought’, keep striving and know what you’re getting
5) Change approach by getting new knowledge and make sure the same mistake don’t happen twice
6) Keep on going until you reached your goal, the important thing to take note is that you must protect your goals and mind from other people and even yourself which tends to be self-sabotaging.

No matter where you are right now, you always have a choice to decide what you really want to accept: be it something you dream of or just expecting that comes in your way.